12 19 90, 2010.

Around this time of year my heart feels joy like never before. Christmas is such a happy season full of love, family, and Jesus. There is nothing else like it. I also celebrate my birthday around this time; guess one could call it a 'double wammy'. :) Or as my mother says.

I've always believed that turning 19 would be so BORING. Yes, I'm moving forward, but stuck in between teen and adult years. But why have I conceived such a shallow point of view about this age?

It's a new year, a new beginning. A new time to celebrate life, GOD, and all that he has to offer.

I'm here to serve. Here to love. Here to be. Here to share. Here to be free. Here to bring hope and here to be ME.

The new year is just around the corner as well. Can you believe it? A little over 2 weeks left in 2009. What an amazing year. Graduation, college, spiritual growth like never before, worship, giving, prayer, sowing and reaping. I could go on and on. God is so good! And He will be even more good and faithful in 2010. I'm believing for big things in '10 and I know God will bring them all into fruition. Thank you Jesus!

I guess I'm just challenging myself. To look past my own thoughts, my own hopes, and accomplishments- and look forward to the things God has in store, to the people I meet. To leave imprints on their lives and not let 2010 just be another year.

This 19th birthday and 2010 will be life changing. I'm ready for it Lord.

Bring it on!

searching with a patient <3

to the man who i will someday call my companion and my best friend

i pray for you, i pray for us.
i ask God to supply
for in him i place my trust.

you're out there, out there waiting for me.
becoming the man that
i have always wanted you to be.

where are you, why aren't you here?
can't you see i'm ready to hold you so dear..

surely,
you will be the head and not the tail
the head of our home
the father of our children
you will never, ever stand alone

i thank god for you each day
and until the moment we find eachother
let nothing stand in our way

good day.

today, i got a phone call and was offered a position on a CTI Summer team! and yes, of course i accepted it!

i knew god had something going on this week and he is so good to me..

wondering what it is? www.ctimusic.org
- check it!!

these are god's people, no matter where they are or what language they speak. i do not want to and will not let this opportunity pass me by. god has major things in store for those i will come in contact with and i'm so super stoked, i can hardly contain it!!!

no not all things are hunky dorey, but im growing and god is still so faithful and has shown himself to me and opened my eyes to a lot of things thee past few days.

i would really appreciate your prayers and thoughts during this exciting time! yes, you're probably thinking ' well its so far away' but that doesn't matter. god is in control and everyday i want to get closer and closer to everything he has for me..

i just want to serve. to be a missionary. to LOVE. to BE like christ. i refuse to let the people i come in contact with, miss the opportunity of meeting the creator of the world.

thank you whoever you are for reading my blog, its really just an update of whats going on with me- thanks for taking the time. you are greatly appreciated and i pray that god blesses you!

dont ever underestimate what god has for you. go for it full force with joy- and boldness. ready to be used in whatever way. it's going to bless you! do not worry. worrying is the opposite of faith- but step out, be an open vessel. most importantly...

lovegod and lovepeople.

be blessed.

cant quite put myfinger on it.

my mind is going going going, so many thoughts, but i cannot put my finger on one complete thing.


does that even make sense?

there's something in the air that makes me feel like SOMETHING is coming. a breakthrough? change? a surprise? direction?

exciting things.. what will it be? praying. keep praying. no fear- but BOLDNESS to move through.

hmm. this is a sheer reflection of what is going on in my mind..... randomnessss.

i want to be used.
i am fighting the flesh.
i try too many times to figure things out by myself.
my heart is crying for a worldly love when all i need is the love of jesus.
i'm becoming who god needs me to be.
i am learning to be comfortable in my own skin.
i do not know all the answers
i am letting go of myself
i do not live for my own profit, but for the profit of others

and i no way do i have it all together....
but i am beautiful in his sight.

now that's honesty.

neeeeed sleep.

god is so good. g'night.

d i s t a n c e

brooke fraser- faithful.

There's distance in the air and I cannot make it leave...
i wave my arms' round about me and blow with all my might
I cannot sense you close, though I know you're always here
But the comfort of you near is what i long for


When I can't feel you, I have learned to reach out just the same
When I can't hear you, I know you still hear everyword I pray
And i want you more than i want to live another day
And as I wait for you maybe I'm made more faithful

COMFORT--.CLOSE.FEEL--.REACHOUT.HEAR.--PRAY.--FAITHFUL.

when we need comfort, god is close.
when we feel pain, or want to feel god, reach out.
when we need to hear god, pray.
and through these things....
we are made faithful.

faithfulness-- trusting in god, even though we may not know what is going on. believing we are HIS precious jewel. his desire for us is to know him, to love him and to be like him.

when i think of someone faithful, i think of: dedication, belief, passion and consistent.

i want to be faithful to my lord jesus, just as he is faithful to me!

**listen to this piece, it's great! may it bless you just as it has blessed me.**

does anyone even readthis?

i blog blog blog.. but does anyone read? haha! i do consider this an outlet for my heart and my mind- so regardless, i'm still gonna chug along!

here's what is going on this week..

i had a communications test today, made an A! I got a test back that i took last week and made a B! ..i started my facebook fast at 12 AM monday morning..

facebook fast? that sounds pretty cheesy you may say.
well, it's not! God has really been working in me lately and I found myself going to facebook any second i did not have anything else going on. i knew it was getting to be too much; i was spending way more time on that than anything else. so, i started monday morning and will go until monday the 12th at 12 am. i don't take this as punishing myself, i just want to assure myself that life DOES continue without facebook. :) it's been good so far and the Lord will bless my efforts. even with something like this!

the lord is so good.. he is so real and so PERSONAL. have you ever thought about that? like what it takes to know someone's every single thought. know the number of hairs on their head and know what they will face on a day to day basis. how much more personal can one be? i find myself wrapped up completely in him. laying on my bedroom floor, in tears, listening to worship music and praying. HONESTLY there is absolutely NOTHING better. nothing at all. he is so personable- my best friend, the lover of my soul and my father. he even cares for the lilies in the field, the sparrows even have a place before his altar.

god longs for affection. he longs for an intimate relationship, for me to long for him. for just a moment.. a moment of complete SURRENDER..

he's revealing things to me. in dreams, visions, people and his word. revealing to me the urgency of him reconciling all creation back to himself. we are his.

TAKE IT

cry in my heart.

starfield, cry in my heart. oh my word.

listen to this if you have a moment, it will bless you! it's such an anointed song with a great great message.

just thought i'd share!

i did it

application for cti?
check.

absolutely and completely stoked?
better believe it.

i don't think i have ever wanted to get out of here more than right now.

as in, "i have never wanted to serve jesus all over the world, more than i do right now."

and this isn't going anywhere folks.

i praise you lord for your promises. i thank you father that you care for me. MORE than i could ever ever ever ever comprehend. no distance nor depth can separate me from you and your love and what a joy it is to know. father, i pray for guidance. peace. supply. provisions. SOULS. LIVES TO BE CHANGED. ministry opportunities. i SPEAK humbleness and LOVE. i rebuke EVERY idea of evil and proclaim your spirit in the lives of your people. father, you reign. i am yours, completely, 100% solely yours and i don't need anything else but you. jesus use me. empty all of my selfishness and pride and make me yours for eternity.

i love you, jesus. amen.

dying alittlemore every day.

can i just start this off by saying that the holy spirit is SO real, he is in every situation- the smallest things matter to him.

so here i am, sitting with my papa at the funeral today and hearing all of these wonderful things about my great uncle, Dewey that went to be with Jesus on Friday. This man was cherished among many and gave of himself to each person he knew. he worked hard in the church and gave his life to the Lord at an older age. i know he's in heaven rejoicing with his brother, my grandfather,-- grandjerry.

but jesus spoke to me today. at a funeral.. remember how i said he is in the 'small' moments?

not just merely about death, but how REAL death is. it is more real than anything else we know and yet we choose to not think about it. at least i try not to. but that is wrong.. we do not know the days we have left here on earth. i could live for 75 more years or 75 days or 75 minutes. i don't know. the one thing I do know is that i am ready. thank you jesus i am ready. by his amazing grace we have been saved and promised eternal life in him. but when will we reach heaven? only he knows.

so that gives me a reason to LIVE. earthly 'death'-- is a reason to live. jesus' DEATH is how we live. but his resurrection means there is no eternal death if we believe in him.

what im trying to say is, i wanna live each day on earth teaching others about jesus.

i think its safe to say..
if i'm not telling someone about god's love and letting them know of all the great things he has done each day, i would be selfish.

what will people remember me by?
how many people can say that they knew me because of my love for jesus?
will people be able to testify that i touched their lives through jesus?

these things are heavy on my heart and thanks to Christian, i blogged about it! so be blessed..

be the change..

long for souls to be saved and lives to be changed.

this is my heart's cry.

eveninthe d e p t h s

listening to Chris Tomlin's "live from austin music hall" the song Indescribable touched me. it is one of those that i'm sure i have heard 34590839452120 times. but god is so good and opened my eyes to something through one phrase...

''you see the depths of my heart and you love me the same.''

our hearts are composed of different parts, different emotions and jesus sees those and the deepest parts. the parts we want NO one else to see. the insecurities, the silent fears.. the jealousy, the lonliness that each of us, everyday, try to cover up with a smile.

jesus knows it. he accepts me even in my weakest moments. he knows me more than i could ever imagine knowing myself or anyone else!

so what is the same?

- when god sent his son, jesus, as the ultimate sacrifice, the greatest love man could ever know was shown..

that love lives in me. lives in you. lives in people around the world, even people who are 'undiscovered' by 'humans'.

that love still exists, never dies and continues throughout all ages regardless of our heart's condition. jesus loves those who don't even care about him or the things that His love has so graciously given us. he sees their depths, my depths, and still loves us the SAME.

I praise God for loving me. No bars held. Wide open, God's love is REAL. IT REMAINS STEADFAST. It is SO well with my soul. Thank you Jesus for accepting me, even when I am in the depths of myself. You see me- you pick me up and you love me just the same.

whataweek.

God is awesome. Amen? ;)

someone told me i was going to have a big week last week, but it was most definitely this week. gah the Lord is awesome to those who remain faithful to him. in no way is this the only reason for salvation- but it's a big part.

blessings.

i sit and ponder how great the god is. through music,lyrcics, through words, through his words, through friends and loved ones.

it's the small things. the front row parking, the laughs, great coffee, getting to bed early, FAVOR.

undeserved mercy and favor.

God knows the small things- he sees the small things. He understands happiness and gives us a little kick of joy right when we need it. that's my jesus- never lets his people down, always knows just what to do. just who to bring into your life!

this blog is a little sporadic, i'm sorry! i think that way. haha.

monday, at clarity- can i just say god definitely showed up? like in amazing ways.

during prayer, the Lord laid these lyrics on my heart. i hope they touch yours.

I see your face on a brand new day
It shines like the brightest sun
But I know you're missing something
I see it in your eyes

Your heart has been searching
Filling itself with emptiness
But there is place that to find eternal rest

Look to the heavens
Search for his heart
He wants your brokenness
Each and every part

God is saying let go
I'll do the rest
Quit asking how do I do that
How do i do this?

Look to the heavens
Search for his heart
He wants your brokenness
Each and every part

This does not necessarily have an order or melodic line yet- suggestions? i'll take them for sure..

Just wanted to share =)

God is here. He loves us. Oh how he loves us.He cares about the little things. Give them over!

I am only one, but still am one. I cannot do everything but still I can do something; and because I cannot do everything, I will not refuse to do something I can do.

-Edward Hale

I believe we as humans have the natural instinct to underestimate our own abilities. Why is this? Because we are afraid of what we're capable of. We're afraid of stretching ourselves to the limit.
.....but Jesus brings a confidence and a strength to overcome these lies.

We each have a gift. A talent or a trait that is a tool for God's kingdom. He calls us to use this for Him- for expanding His kingdom here on earth

Rob Kaple brought up a good point at bible study on Monday- "God has 'delayed' his return in order for more people to be saved." Time is running out, life isn't going backwards. Why not use what you have? I certainly can't leave my friends and those I have yet to meet, miss Jesus.

Jesus has never been so real. I find myself saying this many times- therefore, he becomes more real to me each day. What an amazing gift. I have prayed and prayed and sought after God and asked him to REVEAL things to me; this week that's just what happened. Not just to reveal himself to me but to drop hints and show things to help me find what my PURPOSE is. I know his kingdom is my purpose- but in what way will I reach people? Music? Speaking? Teaching?

I don't exactly want to put what I received this week- but it's time for bigger things. To step outside and find Jesus is other places. And I'm stoked.

I pray the same for you. That you'd have a hunger and thirst for Jesus so strong that you find yourself on your knees each day. Begging for his presence in your life. There is no better satisfaction. He doesn't just satisfy. He saturates and still pours out.

God speaks. He loves. He cares. He rules and reigns over ALL things. Do something for Jesus- something outside of the "ordinary"- you'll find Him.

'i love you...'

clarity is one of the best blessings in the whole world. yes, clarity itself and bible study on monday nights..i

just to bask in Jesus' presence.. brings perfect understanding, peace, love, and patience.

the presence of God is so heavy on me.. he's working and i cannot and do not want to miss one second of it.. for so long i've missed it..

missed the opportunities
missed the love
missed the companionship
missed the trust
missed His presence in me..

i realize i don't need anything but Jesus.. the things that I missed haven't not been there because they didn't exist.. i missed them because i didn't LOOK for them. i didn't search for them with my heart. i looked to myself.. i looked to the people that i "loved" to find myself and to find happiness.. i knew God was going to smack me :) sooner or later. thank goodness he did..

i forgot how to say 'I love you Jesus'

i believe it's so much easier to talk about "loving" someone and saying that you love someone than to TELL the person you love them- and mean it with all your heart..


i felt like i needed worldly love.. i lost it and felt terrible-- but Jesus has filled that place-- but that's where he should have been from the beginning. i cannot fully love someone else until i love jesus with all i have! it's a time of growth but it will come!

i went to lifeway today to look for a "true love waits" ring and heard a song on their radio and got chills. i KNEW i had to find that CD.. it was selah's new CD.. got it and balled my eyes out the whole way home. listen to Deliver Us by Selah. it will knock your socks off. i promise! He continues to pour out his spirit-- even in the smallest situations.. and the most awkward. but it's supposed to be like that because He is EVERYWHERE.. and He is in EVERYTIHNG.

jesus is so good.. he takes my darkness and turns it into light. Psalm 18:28.

don't forget to tell Jesus you love him.. it will transform your heart- and it will continue to. for his love is unending.. it has no boundaries. DONT miss it..

love

country's barbecue

Making you hungry?? :)

Today i went to pick up lunch for my mom and I from country's while on my lunch break. I left my office and headed that way to find that i had to sit in line for 30 minutes. i am not a very patient person.. so i picked up my bible that was in my passenger seat and began to read the second chapter of proverbs.

I read about being obedient and listening to god's love and hiding his word in my heart, so i may live a long and faithful life to him.. and it made me begin to think..

yeah, we've been struggling lately- but we are so blessed. i sat in an air conditioned car-- ate a yummy, warm meal and had somewhere to go to eat. i was sitting at the stop light and saw a homeless man digging in the trash looking for lunch.... i was SO close to giving my lunch to him, BUT i didn't. i now know i should have!! i should've been more obedient to the holy spirit and blessed this man. but i guess this is just another way god has shown me to not be so arrogant. to not take advantage of what i have.. to be THANKFUL for a home.. for a car.. for air conditioning and a place to sleep at night..

i'm not sure why, but homeless people have been on my heart so much this week. i need to get a group together and get things from a shelter and give them to the homeless. sure, this man could've gone to the salvation army for help or something but he is an example or maybe a depiction of why i should give- why i should care and why i should not be afraid to step out..

i'm not holding back anymore. god's love and kingdom is too big for my selfish thoughts and excuses.. the time is now- and it's running out... more and more each day.

lovin' it.

Life has been so fun for the past month. I can't explain the joy and blessings that the Lord has placed in my heart. HE is so special to me, and I find new things in Him each day.

God's presence has been SO heavy and so evident in my life recently. I cannot go one day without his word and his presence. It's time to step out and move in Christ; in all of my life.

I have been so confused about school and what to do about it. I will be attending Columbus State University in the fall.. but I have different ideas about the next year. The Lord has called me to use my music to touch the lives of people and invite His presence into their lives. I do not take this lightly!
If you know me, I love Kari Jobe. Her music is my music. Her talent goes far beyond just voice- it's ministry. She is completely drenched in the spirit whenever she sings and it's something that I want. I met a girl at The Door the other night. Come to find out she goes to Southwestern University in Texas. We started talking about college and things and she asked me why I have never considered going to Christ for the Nations Institute. It hit me like a ton of bricks! Duh Lindsey.. you see the ministry that comes out of that school. I have always loved that church and I can't seem to understand why I didnt think of it before. I feel like the girl that I met allowed me to open my eyes to something new. Yet it wasn't her, it was the Lord. I printed out an application and will be sending it soon! Yes, Dallas, TX is VERY far away. But nothing is too far for God. I can't wait to see what is in store for my life!

Be praying that God will allow me to go, and the resources will fall in place- because I know they are already there.

Thank you Lord for your evident presence in my life..

I pray everyone has had a great week!

MUCH love! <3

thankful.

For some odd reason I am at a loss for words tonight. I read Max tonight but I didn't feel the need to post anything. One thing did stand out though, You CANT fix and INSIDE problem on the outside... ponder on that one :)

anyways. im just thankful for today. thankful for family and for friends and the chance to know God and fall more in love with him each day.

I hope everyone had a blessed day.

you don't need anything but ME.

As I was spending time with the Lord and praying tonight before leading worship, He really laid something on my heart. I feel like there are so many things in life that I am either missing that I think I need or I'm not satisfied with the things that I do have.
God really placed that on my heart and He told me... "Lindsey, I'm all that you need."

That simply changed my heart tonight. I don't need affection from a man, I definitely do not need a relationship with a man right now. I do not need more money or nicer clothes, or do I need to have tons and tons of friends, because I know that my creator loves me and He has me in His hands all the time.

Satisfaction doesn't come by fulfilling our own wants but it comes through fulfillment of what God wants for us. He wants me, and He needs me. He created me to be His and I want to be wrapped in him everyday, all day. It's like a new romance, that will never end and never grow old.

Be honest with God. Admit you have soul secrets you've never dealt with. He already knows what they are. He's just waiting for you to ask him to help! He's just waiting for you to give him your sack of rocks. It's hard to throw stones when you've left your sack at the cross.

God's presence is the absolute best place to be. There is no fear, no doubt, no bars held. There's FREEDOM. Freedom to express yourself, freedom to fall and be picked up. Freedom to cry and freedom to be joyful. He knows my name.. He knows my every thought. I thank God for saving me from myself and placing me upon a solid foundation....himself.

Seeing What Eyes Can't

There is more to life than what meets the eye. For that is what faith is.Faith is trusting what the eye can't see.

Eyes see the prowling lion.. Faith sees Daniel's angel.
Eyes see storms...Faith sees Noah's rainbow.
Eyes see giants...Faith sees Canaan.
Your eyes see your faults... Your faith sees your Savior.
Your eyes see your guilt... Your faith sees his BLOOD.
Your eyes see your grave... Your faith sees a city whose builder and maker is God.

The very hands that were nailed to the cross are open for you. hold them..

Once again, Max Lucado just really speaks to my heart. It's so easy to get lost in the day to day routine and lose sight of what really matters and why God allowed you to breathe His air that day. My own thoughts fall so short of the Lord's.

One thing I am longing for is to see things the way that God sees them. To take everything as a grain of salt and know that it is in the hands of my creator. I think things through way too much sometimes and I believe I get lost in that. God is helping me realize just who He is and how He can impact my life, not just impact it, but live it. He is so wonderful to me!

Just a few moments ago I saw something on facebook from a previous teacher of mine that made me so angry at him.. I wanted to say something but I held my tounge because I read a few nights ago that revenge is not mine, it is the Lords. God knows where I am, he knows what I am feeling and I have to allow Him to work things out. Not my own selfish desires...it's definitely a learning process!

G'night!

it's for real.

if you know me, you know what happened a few days ago in my life! i ended a relationship that had been off and on for almost 4 years now. i've been thinking a lot about blogging about it, and i've finally decided to do it.

he was the answer to my prayers 3 and a half years ago and i knew that he was right for me then. that's the whole reason. that was then and this is now. here i am 18 years old, going to be 19 in 5 months and i'm finally beginning to find ME. the real me. the me that i am in God and no one else and it's time to focus on that. i loved this boy with all that i had mustered inside of me for the longest time and i still count it a blessing to this day. but things change, feelings change, and life moves on. it's a new beginning, it's for real this time, it's mutual and it's somewhat exciting to see what the Lord is going to do in not only my life, but in his as well. i'm thankful for the past, i'm thankful for the hurts and i'm thankful for this because i'm finding out who i am and i am ready to know what God has in store for me..God REALLY revealed himself to me through this and i love him more than i ever have because i have experienced his peace and his love more than ever before.

"God's power is very great for those who believe. That power is the same as the great strength God used to raise Christ from the dead." (Ephesians 1:19-20)

The same power that conquered the grave lives in me. Your love that rescued the earth lives in me, lives in me..

i serve a GREAT God!

it's been a while! Hidden Heroes.

About a month ago, I was roaming through Barnes & Noble looking for a great study book. I came by a book written by Max Lucado and knew it was exactly what I was looking for. Thankfully, it was on clearance as well! Woo for bargains!

I was about to go to sleep one night and I had a hankerin' for a good story. So, I opened my book and began to read about Paul. Little did I know that I would be sobbing by the end of this story. Let me share a little with you....

Chapter three, pg. 27. changed my perspective on a few things. The title of this article is called, "Hidden Heroes".

It speaks of Paul in Romans and how he gave all he had to the Lord. Paul shaped history. Paul would die in the jail of a despot. No headlines announced his execution and no observer recorded the events. To the society, Paul was a peculiar purveyor of an odd faith. (Lucado) Doesn't look like a hero, doesn't sound like one either. He never recieved a salary. He had to pay his own travel expenses. Kept a part-time job to make ends meet. He introduced himself, while writing Romans, as the worst sinner in history. He asked who would save him from this body, which brough him death? ( Rom. 7:24). Only heaven knows how long he stared at the question before he found the logic to write "I thank God for saving me through Christ Jesus our Lord!" ( Romans 7:24)..

Bystanders would not believe the things that Pauld did for the Lord. No one gave him any credit because they saw him as a murderer. Paul's name would blow like the dust his bones would become. He was a hidden heroe. He was noble, but passing. Courageous, but small. Radical yet unnocticed. No one bade farewell to him thinking that his name would be remembered more than a generation.

A hero could be next door and you wouldn't even know it.

Tomorrows Spurgeon might be mowing your lan. And the hero who enspires him might be nearer than you think. He might be in your mirror.

(MAX LUCADO)

1. In what way do heroes seldom look like heroes? Heroes are not boastful. They do not walk around with their heads hung high. They keep to themselves and continue to do what they do from the love of their heart. Not from their own egos.

2. What's your picture of a hero? One who lays down himself including his image and his pride to impact another persons life. big or small.



My prayer is to rejoice in sorrow. Be rich in the Lord through rejoicing in his promises and know that I possess everything even when I have nothing. (2 Corinthians 6: 10)
...just as Paul did.

easter sunday

he is risen!
thank you, jesus for your sacrifice and for bringing eternal life for me and all of those who fall short of the glory of God.

what a day!!
church was so great today, i love easter sunday services.. great music and an awesome sermon..
after church my family and i came home and had lunch with my grandmother and her fiancee, jack. yes, my grandmother is geting married!

we had the BEST food-- man o man. i'm not eating dinner tonight! lol

ta wanted to give me my graduation gift today. so... carty told me it was just money, so for the past 2 weeks i have had it set in my mind that it was a check. i got a card and just thought that was all. after screamin crying at the sweet card, i got a biigg box on the table. i thought mom had just tricked me and wrapped it up to confuse me.. but to my surprise, a little box was inside.. i opened it and was toootally shocked. i had NO i dea that i was getting a beaauutiful ring! it's soo pretty. i have to wear it on my right hand cause it look so much like an engagement ring.

i think i cried so hard because it is so sentimental. the ring setting was my great grandmother's and the 1/2 carat diamond was my grandmother's from my deceased grandfather..
i have such an awesome and loving family. i was so blessed...

i fell asleep today for 4 hours! i had no ideaaa that i was going to sleep that long. lol. i guess i was just sooo exhausted.. lol

anyways.. i'm out for the night..

lindseyology

Let others know a little more about yourself, re-post this as your name
followed by "ology".

***********FOODOLOGY******

*********

What is your salad dressing of choice?
ranch

What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
cheddars

What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?
chicken fingers

What are your pizza toppings of choice?
meat loverrss

What do you like to put on your toast?
strawberry jelly!


***********TECHNOLOGY***************

How many televisions are in your house?
7

What color cell phone do you have?
titanium?


***************BIOLOGY******************

Are you right-handed or left-handed?
Right .


Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
my wisdom teeth


What is the last heavy item you lifted?
my bag from the beach!


Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
for a few seconds cause i ran into a wall... i wasnt paying attention! lol

************BULL-OLOGY**************

If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
no .
nope...i'm living every day like it's my last!

If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
i wouldn't


Would you drink an intire bottle of hot sauce for a $1000?
ppssshh heck no.


************DUMBOLOGY******************

How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
like 5?

Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
never ever!

Last person you talked to?
my momma

Last person you hugged?
ta

**************FAVORITOLOGY****************

Season?
spring

Holiday?
christmas

Day of the week?
wednesdays and fridays..

Month?
may and december

***********CURRENTOLOGY*****************


Missing someone?
yes.. a few

Mood?
lovin' life.

What are you listening to?
momma talkin

Watching?
the computer screen

Worrying about?
senior project

***************RANDOMOLOGY*****************

First place you went this morning?
bathroom

What's the last movie you saw?
diary of a mad black woman

Do you smile alot?
yeah

Sleeping Alone Tonight?
jesus is with mee

***************OTHER-OLOGY*****************

Do you always answer your phone?
oh yeahh

Its four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
justin

If you could change your eye color what would it be?
pretty green

What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
cherry limeade

Do you own a digital camera?
nope

Have you ever had a pet fish?
yes i did


What's on your wish list for your birthday?
laptop


Can you do push ups?
lord no..

Can you do a chin ups?
what's that?

Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
excited!

Do you have any saved texts?
nope

Ever been in a car wreck?
no

Do you have an accent?
southern

What is the last song to make you cry?
uuhmm idk

Plans tonight?
sleeeep and relaxation

Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
yes

Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
yesterday? lunch at pompano joes..that's it!

Have you ever been given roses?
yes :)

Current worry?
senior project... wasn't that question just asked?

Current hate right now?
uhhmm.. don't hate, appreciate. lol

Met someone who changed your life?
yes!

What song represents you?
what?? don't have one..

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
nope..

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
oh yeah

Do you have any tattoos/piercings?
pierced ears

Will you be in a relationship 4 months from now?
hope so

Does anyone love you?
duhh

Would you be a pirate?
lol no..

What songs do you sing in the shower?
worship songs

Ever had someone sing to you?
yes

When did you last cry?
when i got my ring today from ta.

Have you held hands with anyone today?
no

Who was the last person you took a picture of?
i took a picture of?? me and lizzie

Are most of the friends in your life new or old?
both

Do you like pulpy orange juice?
no no no no

What is something your friends make fun of you for?
stupid things that come out of my mouth.. and my TOES.

a to z and a real post!

A-Z

A
- Available: yes
- Age: 18
- Annoyance: when i can't get warm...no cell phone service...my windshield wipers and gossip
- Animal: dog

B
- Birthday: december 19
- Body Part on opposite sex: smile and eyes
- Best feeling in the world: accomplishment..love.. and care
- Best weather: spring weather...storms and all
- Been on stage?: yes
- Believe in Santa: duhhh

C
- Candy: snickers
- Color: chocolate brown, pink, and lime green
- Chocolate/Vanilla: vanilla
- Chinese/Mexican: mexican
- Cake or pie: cake
- Continent/Country to visit: france, spain
- Cheese: american?

D
- Day or Night: night
- Dance in the rain? i have

E
- Eggs: i have to be in the mood.. scrambled and with cheese..sometimes
- Eyes: long eyelashes

F
- Full name: Lindsey Leigh Posey
- Food: not one favorite..but fried chicken and macaroni are up there!

G
- Greatest Fear: uhmm.. being alone
- Gum: stride spearmint
- Get along with your parents?: yeah!
- Good luck charm: i dont have one.

H
- Height: 5'3.5
- Happy: i am now :) wasn't earlier!!
- Holiday: Christmas
- How do you want to die: i dont want to. i want jesus to come back and take me home. but painless would be very nice.

I
- Ice Cream: hmm.. cookie dough.. or sweet cream with strawberries

J
- Jewelry: my 2 cross necklaces.. and my blue ring

K
- Kids: 2 or 4
- Kickboxing or karate: neither
- Keep a journal?: yeahh

L
- Longest Car Ride: Canada
- Love: Jesus
- Laughed so hard you cried: all the time with the Posey family

M
- Milk flavor: ew.. just regular
- Movies: idk! madea's movies andd ?
- Motion sickness? no
- McD’s or BK: mcdonalds

N
- Number of Siblings: one sister
- Number of Piercings: 4

O
- One wish: if i tell, it's gonna spoil it.

P
- Perfect Pizza: meat lovers with extra cheeese :)
- Pepsi/Coke:coke. diet coke.

Q
- Quail: to eat? no. to kill? NO.

R
- Reason to cry: hurt, lonliness, joy and surprise!
- Reality T.V: it's overrated.. but i'm addicted.
- Radio Station: 103.7 the truth. ITS THE BEST!
- Roll your tongue in a circle?: i dont think so


S
- Song: i will be- Leona Lewis.. and any christian
- Shoe size: 8 1/2 to 9 WIDE. :(
- Sushi: never ever.
- Slept outside: yep! alaska aim trip
- Skinny dipped?: yes
- Shower daily? no
- Sing well? guess so
- In the shower? duh. that's the best
- Strawberries/Blueberries: strawberries!

T
- Time for bed? typically like 11:15..
- Thunderstorms: used to be petrified. but i LOVE them now! they put me to the best sleep EVER

U
- Unpredictable: what will happen in the next 10 minutes.. life.. death?.. school. LIFE.

V
- Vacation spot: dream? hawaii and paris. reality? panama city.

W
- Weakness: SWEETS.. cookies, brownies, cake.. anything fried too.. unfortunately.
- Who makes you laugh the most: my mother. without a doubt
- Worst feeling: sickness!
- Wanted to be a model? hahahaha
- Where do we go when we die? to heaven or hell
- Worst Weather? hurricaine....forgot which one.. that i was trapped in burger king during!

X
- X-Rays: never ever

Y
- Year it is now: 2009
- Yellow: spring, chicks, the sun

LAST PERSON WHO…
You went to the mall with?: elise

You went to dinner with?: uuhmm.. family?

Kissed you?: my daddy.. on my forehead!

You talked to on the phone? Mom

Made you laugh? justin

Hugged you? dad

Said they loved you? dad

Spoke with? carty

You cried over? no comment. i just despise school right now. choir to be exact.

Last person you texted? justin

1.If your doctor told you TODAY that you were pregnant, what would you say? that he's crazy cause there is no way that could even be possible

2. Do you trust all of your friends? not all of them

3.Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love? 100% absolutely.

4.Do you believe that everything happens for a reason? yes

5.Can you make a dollar in change right now? i hope so! lol

6.Which one of your friends do you think would make the best doctor? my grandmother, Ta.

7.Are you afraid of falling in love? nope

9.Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times? yess

10.Whats your most favorite scar? is there such a thing? i have one on my tongue actually.. bad fall when i was little. almost bit it off!

11.When was the last time you flew in a plane? Anchorage, Alaska

12.What did the last text message you sent say? idk i deleted them

13.What features do you find most attractive in the preferred sex? preferred? BOY. eyes and smile and heart.

14. Fill in the blank.
I love: Jesus, my family, my friends and my church

15.What is a goal you would like to accomplish in the near future? graduate high school.. get a good job... move out and go to college

16.If you were to wake up from being in a coma for an extended time who would you call? nobody.. i hope they'd be there

17.How many kids do you want to have? 2 or 4

18.Would you make a good parent? i pray.

19.Where was your default picture taken? outside in the snow

20.Whats your middle name? leigh

21.Honestly, whats on your mind right now? junior, senior.. how annoyed i am with school and fine arts

22.If you could go back in time and change something, what would it be? some of the things i've said.. but not the situation

23.Who was or will be the maid of honor/ best man in your wedding? my sister and whoever my husband decides

24.What are you wearing right now? pjs

25.Righty or Lefty? righty

26.Best place to eat? uhmm.. any japanese and subway

27.Favorite jeans? It jeans

28.Favorite animal? doggy

29.Favorite juice? v8 fusion

30.Have you had the chicken pox? yes

31.Have you had a sore throat? yeah

32.Ever had a bar fighT? every friday night. :x

33.Who knows you the best? Jesus

34.Shoe size? repeat. read above.

35.Do you wear contact lenses or glasses? no, thank the lord

36.Ever been in a fight with your pet? hahaha nope

37.Been to Mexico? no..i would love to go!

38.Did you buy something today? noppee

39.Did you get sick today? no!

40.Do you miss someone today? yeah

41.Did you get in a fight with someone today? i got VERY frustrated.

42.When is the last time you had a massage? in choir today......awkward

43.Last person to lay in your bed? just me

44.Last person to see you cry? elise

45.Who made you cry? no comment

46.What was the last TV show you watched? american idol

47.What are your plans for the weekend? FAF 2009!!!!

48.Who do you think will repost this? i dunnoo

49.Who was the last person you hung out with? my family

50.If your significant other asked you to marry them TODAY what would you say? if i had one, and it was right..then yes.

51What is your favorite energy drink or energy shot? don't have one..i dont drink them!

52. How many times per week do you drink soda? well i have atleast 4 diet cokes today.

53.What's your favorite flavor? of what?

54. What is your favorite fish to eat? slamon!

55. Who is your favorite person to eat at a restaurant with? am i really supposed to have one of those? probably my mom...cause it's ALWAYS a free meal and an adventure.

56.What color best describes your current mood? blue.

57.Black and white photos or colored? both. picnik makes them mixed.. so that's even better!


senioritis has never been so prevalent in my life than right now!
today the Lord taught me patience.... in a tough way. i could've definitely blown up on some people.. but i believe i held my tongue. as well as i could. ;) may 17th really cannot come fast enough.

fine arts is coming this weekend- and i'm so excited. this year, i'm giving it all i have. cause its my last one! i'm singing abide in me. this song isn't just fitting for my voice- but it kinda explains my story. so i hope that is portrayed through what i do.

God is so good and his mercies are new every morning. he is everywhere i go and in everything i do. i just have to find him. in him there is peace, joy, love, comfort and unending care and comfort and there is nothing greater.

i pray that anyone and everyone that reads this blog has had a great day and will have an awesome weekend. be blessed!

love you all.

<3 lindsey

surprises

while sleeping so soundly and warmly in my bed.. my mom stormed in my room sreaming, "it's snowing outside!!" I looked out the window, realizing that it wasn't sticking... so i went back to bed! 2 hours later i woke up to something i haven't seen in a really really long time. god is so good to us and displays his beauty in such awesome ways! my dad and i went to church... things seemed to get worse as the morning went on so church was cut short and i got to go home and play in the snow!

my sister wasn't back from savannah yet so i was allll alone! :( but mom decided to come play with me.. gosh, it was so pretty outside!

NO SCHOOL TOMORROW! yaaayy! i think that all of the roads are going to be frozen.. so i won't be going out either..

these days have been a lot different for me lately. i'm finding my self falling more in love with the Lord each day. for song i relied on other people to solve my problems and ignore the real things in life.. i'm taking responsibilty of me and giving everything over to God.. there is no way that i could've gotten this far without Him and his guiding hands.. now each day is something new and the future seems kinda scary-- but i know that He holds each day and knows exactly how my heart is and there is NO greater gift than that!

i have begun to write songs lately.. well lyrics and they are really from my heart annnd i may just put some of them up here!

today has been a day full of surprises and beautiful things.. just like each new day to come :)

that's all for today. have a blessed night!

did'nt finish..

100 randomocities!

1. im exhausted right now
2. i cooked some stinkin yummy friendship bread tonight
3. madea goes to jail is a really really funny movie
4. im listening to sarah reeves right now, she's great!
5. im dreading monday!!!
6. may 17th cant come fast enough lol
7. fine arts is next weekend!!
8. i reallllyyy wanna go on vacation!
9. i'd love to have a ford explorer..
10. i have the best family in the whole world
11. i love my jesus
12. i want a puppy.. a small puffy white one
13. im ready to fall in love
14. i just scrated my nose... :)
15. i drive a honda accord
16. nobody ever spells my middle name right. LEIGH
17. 930 is gonna come real early in the morning!
18. i have no idea what i'm going to do with my life!
19. i've recorded a CD
20. my favorite color is blue.. but i always wear black
21. i need a prom dress!
22. Christianity and salvation is the greatest gift i could've ever recieved.
23. i would love to tour the US this summer with CTI ministries
24. i hold the microphone to close to my mouth
25. i hope to exceed in my piano abilities!
26. How Deep the Father's Love is the best hymn
27. i really really like Chris Tomlin's voice
28. life is boring without my sister here with meee
29. i hope to get my own place soon!
30. i dream of my wedding day... everyday!
31. i watched love's long journey today :))
32. i love jewelry
33. i need to go to the orthodontist
34. i reallllyyy want a grand piano!
35. elise horne is my bfff
36. "you find out who your friends are"..
37. "hear the song of my life, let it be a sweet sweet sound."
38. hopefully i will see john mayer sometime this year
39. i will be going to New York and Boston next month!
40. i cant think of anything else to say!

okay so i didn't make it to 100 but oh well :) im too tired!
see if you can!

i'm toooo sleepy to even keep my eyes open! goodnight everyone