cant quite put myfinger on it.

my mind is going going going, so many thoughts, but i cannot put my finger on one complete thing.


does that even make sense?

there's something in the air that makes me feel like SOMETHING is coming. a breakthrough? change? a surprise? direction?

exciting things.. what will it be? praying. keep praying. no fear- but BOLDNESS to move through.

hmm. this is a sheer reflection of what is going on in my mind..... randomnessss.

i want to be used.
i am fighting the flesh.
i try too many times to figure things out by myself.
my heart is crying for a worldly love when all i need is the love of jesus.
i'm becoming who god needs me to be.
i am learning to be comfortable in my own skin.
i do not know all the answers
i am letting go of myself
i do not live for my own profit, but for the profit of others

and i no way do i have it all together....
but i am beautiful in his sight.

now that's honesty.

neeeeed sleep.

god is so good. g'night.