'i love you...'

clarity is one of the best blessings in the whole world. yes, clarity itself and bible study on monday nights..i

just to bask in Jesus' presence.. brings perfect understanding, peace, love, and patience.

the presence of God is so heavy on me.. he's working and i cannot and do not want to miss one second of it.. for so long i've missed it..

missed the opportunities
missed the love
missed the companionship
missed the trust
missed His presence in me..

i realize i don't need anything but Jesus.. the things that I missed haven't not been there because they didn't exist.. i missed them because i didn't LOOK for them. i didn't search for them with my heart. i looked to myself.. i looked to the people that i "loved" to find myself and to find happiness.. i knew God was going to smack me :) sooner or later. thank goodness he did..

i forgot how to say 'I love you Jesus'

i believe it's so much easier to talk about "loving" someone and saying that you love someone than to TELL the person you love them- and mean it with all your heart..


i felt like i needed worldly love.. i lost it and felt terrible-- but Jesus has filled that place-- but that's where he should have been from the beginning. i cannot fully love someone else until i love jesus with all i have! it's a time of growth but it will come!

i went to lifeway today to look for a "true love waits" ring and heard a song on their radio and got chills. i KNEW i had to find that CD.. it was selah's new CD.. got it and balled my eyes out the whole way home. listen to Deliver Us by Selah. it will knock your socks off. i promise! He continues to pour out his spirit-- even in the smallest situations.. and the most awkward. but it's supposed to be like that because He is EVERYWHERE.. and He is in EVERYTIHNG.

jesus is so good.. he takes my darkness and turns it into light. Psalm 18:28.

don't forget to tell Jesus you love him.. it will transform your heart- and it will continue to. for his love is unending.. it has no boundaries. DONT miss it..

love

country's barbecue

Making you hungry?? :)

Today i went to pick up lunch for my mom and I from country's while on my lunch break. I left my office and headed that way to find that i had to sit in line for 30 minutes. i am not a very patient person.. so i picked up my bible that was in my passenger seat and began to read the second chapter of proverbs.

I read about being obedient and listening to god's love and hiding his word in my heart, so i may live a long and faithful life to him.. and it made me begin to think..

yeah, we've been struggling lately- but we are so blessed. i sat in an air conditioned car-- ate a yummy, warm meal and had somewhere to go to eat. i was sitting at the stop light and saw a homeless man digging in the trash looking for lunch.... i was SO close to giving my lunch to him, BUT i didn't. i now know i should have!! i should've been more obedient to the holy spirit and blessed this man. but i guess this is just another way god has shown me to not be so arrogant. to not take advantage of what i have.. to be THANKFUL for a home.. for a car.. for air conditioning and a place to sleep at night..

i'm not sure why, but homeless people have been on my heart so much this week. i need to get a group together and get things from a shelter and give them to the homeless. sure, this man could've gone to the salvation army for help or something but he is an example or maybe a depiction of why i should give- why i should care and why i should not be afraid to step out..

i'm not holding back anymore. god's love and kingdom is too big for my selfish thoughts and excuses.. the time is now- and it's running out... more and more each day.

lovin' it.

Life has been so fun for the past month. I can't explain the joy and blessings that the Lord has placed in my heart. HE is so special to me, and I find new things in Him each day.

God's presence has been SO heavy and so evident in my life recently. I cannot go one day without his word and his presence. It's time to step out and move in Christ; in all of my life.

I have been so confused about school and what to do about it. I will be attending Columbus State University in the fall.. but I have different ideas about the next year. The Lord has called me to use my music to touch the lives of people and invite His presence into their lives. I do not take this lightly!
If you know me, I love Kari Jobe. Her music is my music. Her talent goes far beyond just voice- it's ministry. She is completely drenched in the spirit whenever she sings and it's something that I want. I met a girl at The Door the other night. Come to find out she goes to Southwestern University in Texas. We started talking about college and things and she asked me why I have never considered going to Christ for the Nations Institute. It hit me like a ton of bricks! Duh Lindsey.. you see the ministry that comes out of that school. I have always loved that church and I can't seem to understand why I didnt think of it before. I feel like the girl that I met allowed me to open my eyes to something new. Yet it wasn't her, it was the Lord. I printed out an application and will be sending it soon! Yes, Dallas, TX is VERY far away. But nothing is too far for God. I can't wait to see what is in store for my life!

Be praying that God will allow me to go, and the resources will fall in place- because I know they are already there.

Thank you Lord for your evident presence in my life..

I pray everyone has had a great week!

MUCH love! <3

thankful.

For some odd reason I am at a loss for words tonight. I read Max tonight but I didn't feel the need to post anything. One thing did stand out though, You CANT fix and INSIDE problem on the outside... ponder on that one :)

anyways. im just thankful for today. thankful for family and for friends and the chance to know God and fall more in love with him each day.

I hope everyone had a blessed day.

you don't need anything but ME.

As I was spending time with the Lord and praying tonight before leading worship, He really laid something on my heart. I feel like there are so many things in life that I am either missing that I think I need or I'm not satisfied with the things that I do have.
God really placed that on my heart and He told me... "Lindsey, I'm all that you need."

That simply changed my heart tonight. I don't need affection from a man, I definitely do not need a relationship with a man right now. I do not need more money or nicer clothes, or do I need to have tons and tons of friends, because I know that my creator loves me and He has me in His hands all the time.

Satisfaction doesn't come by fulfilling our own wants but it comes through fulfillment of what God wants for us. He wants me, and He needs me. He created me to be His and I want to be wrapped in him everyday, all day. It's like a new romance, that will never end and never grow old.

Be honest with God. Admit you have soul secrets you've never dealt with. He already knows what they are. He's just waiting for you to ask him to help! He's just waiting for you to give him your sack of rocks. It's hard to throw stones when you've left your sack at the cross.

God's presence is the absolute best place to be. There is no fear, no doubt, no bars held. There's FREEDOM. Freedom to express yourself, freedom to fall and be picked up. Freedom to cry and freedom to be joyful. He knows my name.. He knows my every thought. I thank God for saving me from myself and placing me upon a solid foundation....himself.

Seeing What Eyes Can't

There is more to life than what meets the eye. For that is what faith is.Faith is trusting what the eye can't see.

Eyes see the prowling lion.. Faith sees Daniel's angel.
Eyes see storms...Faith sees Noah's rainbow.
Eyes see giants...Faith sees Canaan.
Your eyes see your faults... Your faith sees your Savior.
Your eyes see your guilt... Your faith sees his BLOOD.
Your eyes see your grave... Your faith sees a city whose builder and maker is God.

The very hands that were nailed to the cross are open for you. hold them..

Once again, Max Lucado just really speaks to my heart. It's so easy to get lost in the day to day routine and lose sight of what really matters and why God allowed you to breathe His air that day. My own thoughts fall so short of the Lord's.

One thing I am longing for is to see things the way that God sees them. To take everything as a grain of salt and know that it is in the hands of my creator. I think things through way too much sometimes and I believe I get lost in that. God is helping me realize just who He is and how He can impact my life, not just impact it, but live it. He is so wonderful to me!

Just a few moments ago I saw something on facebook from a previous teacher of mine that made me so angry at him.. I wanted to say something but I held my tounge because I read a few nights ago that revenge is not mine, it is the Lords. God knows where I am, he knows what I am feeling and I have to allow Him to work things out. Not my own selfish desires...it's definitely a learning process!

G'night!

it's for real.

if you know me, you know what happened a few days ago in my life! i ended a relationship that had been off and on for almost 4 years now. i've been thinking a lot about blogging about it, and i've finally decided to do it.

he was the answer to my prayers 3 and a half years ago and i knew that he was right for me then. that's the whole reason. that was then and this is now. here i am 18 years old, going to be 19 in 5 months and i'm finally beginning to find ME. the real me. the me that i am in God and no one else and it's time to focus on that. i loved this boy with all that i had mustered inside of me for the longest time and i still count it a blessing to this day. but things change, feelings change, and life moves on. it's a new beginning, it's for real this time, it's mutual and it's somewhat exciting to see what the Lord is going to do in not only my life, but in his as well. i'm thankful for the past, i'm thankful for the hurts and i'm thankful for this because i'm finding out who i am and i am ready to know what God has in store for me..God REALLY revealed himself to me through this and i love him more than i ever have because i have experienced his peace and his love more than ever before.

"God's power is very great for those who believe. That power is the same as the great strength God used to raise Christ from the dead." (Ephesians 1:19-20)

The same power that conquered the grave lives in me. Your love that rescued the earth lives in me, lives in me..

i serve a GREAT God!