good day.

today, i got a phone call and was offered a position on a CTI Summer team! and yes, of course i accepted it!

i knew god had something going on this week and he is so good to me..

wondering what it is? www.ctimusic.org
- check it!!

these are god's people, no matter where they are or what language they speak. i do not want to and will not let this opportunity pass me by. god has major things in store for those i will come in contact with and i'm so super stoked, i can hardly contain it!!!

no not all things are hunky dorey, but im growing and god is still so faithful and has shown himself to me and opened my eyes to a lot of things thee past few days.

i would really appreciate your prayers and thoughts during this exciting time! yes, you're probably thinking ' well its so far away' but that doesn't matter. god is in control and everyday i want to get closer and closer to everything he has for me..

i just want to serve. to be a missionary. to LOVE. to BE like christ. i refuse to let the people i come in contact with, miss the opportunity of meeting the creator of the world.

thank you whoever you are for reading my blog, its really just an update of whats going on with me- thanks for taking the time. you are greatly appreciated and i pray that god blesses you!

dont ever underestimate what god has for you. go for it full force with joy- and boldness. ready to be used in whatever way. it's going to bless you! do not worry. worrying is the opposite of faith- but step out, be an open vessel. most importantly...

lovegod and lovepeople.

be blessed.

cant quite put myfinger on it.

my mind is going going going, so many thoughts, but i cannot put my finger on one complete thing.


does that even make sense?

there's something in the air that makes me feel like SOMETHING is coming. a breakthrough? change? a surprise? direction?

exciting things.. what will it be? praying. keep praying. no fear- but BOLDNESS to move through.

hmm. this is a sheer reflection of what is going on in my mind..... randomnessss.

i want to be used.
i am fighting the flesh.
i try too many times to figure things out by myself.
my heart is crying for a worldly love when all i need is the love of jesus.
i'm becoming who god needs me to be.
i am learning to be comfortable in my own skin.
i do not know all the answers
i am letting go of myself
i do not live for my own profit, but for the profit of others

and i no way do i have it all together....
but i am beautiful in his sight.

now that's honesty.

neeeeed sleep.

god is so good. g'night.

d i s t a n c e

brooke fraser- faithful.

There's distance in the air and I cannot make it leave...
i wave my arms' round about me and blow with all my might
I cannot sense you close, though I know you're always here
But the comfort of you near is what i long for


When I can't feel you, I have learned to reach out just the same
When I can't hear you, I know you still hear everyword I pray
And i want you more than i want to live another day
And as I wait for you maybe I'm made more faithful

COMFORT--.CLOSE.FEEL--.REACHOUT.HEAR.--PRAY.--FAITHFUL.

when we need comfort, god is close.
when we feel pain, or want to feel god, reach out.
when we need to hear god, pray.
and through these things....
we are made faithful.

faithfulness-- trusting in god, even though we may not know what is going on. believing we are HIS precious jewel. his desire for us is to know him, to love him and to be like him.

when i think of someone faithful, i think of: dedication, belief, passion and consistent.

i want to be faithful to my lord jesus, just as he is faithful to me!

**listen to this piece, it's great! may it bless you just as it has blessed me.**

does anyone even readthis?

i blog blog blog.. but does anyone read? haha! i do consider this an outlet for my heart and my mind- so regardless, i'm still gonna chug along!

here's what is going on this week..

i had a communications test today, made an A! I got a test back that i took last week and made a B! ..i started my facebook fast at 12 AM monday morning..

facebook fast? that sounds pretty cheesy you may say.
well, it's not! God has really been working in me lately and I found myself going to facebook any second i did not have anything else going on. i knew it was getting to be too much; i was spending way more time on that than anything else. so, i started monday morning and will go until monday the 12th at 12 am. i don't take this as punishing myself, i just want to assure myself that life DOES continue without facebook. :) it's been good so far and the Lord will bless my efforts. even with something like this!

the lord is so good.. he is so real and so PERSONAL. have you ever thought about that? like what it takes to know someone's every single thought. know the number of hairs on their head and know what they will face on a day to day basis. how much more personal can one be? i find myself wrapped up completely in him. laying on my bedroom floor, in tears, listening to worship music and praying. HONESTLY there is absolutely NOTHING better. nothing at all. he is so personable- my best friend, the lover of my soul and my father. he even cares for the lilies in the field, the sparrows even have a place before his altar.

god longs for affection. he longs for an intimate relationship, for me to long for him. for just a moment.. a moment of complete SURRENDER..

he's revealing things to me. in dreams, visions, people and his word. revealing to me the urgency of him reconciling all creation back to himself. we are his.

TAKE IT

cry in my heart.

starfield, cry in my heart. oh my word.

listen to this if you have a moment, it will bless you! it's such an anointed song with a great great message.

just thought i'd share!