'i love you...'

clarity is one of the best blessings in the whole world. yes, clarity itself and bible study on monday nights..i

just to bask in Jesus' presence.. brings perfect understanding, peace, love, and patience.

the presence of God is so heavy on me.. he's working and i cannot and do not want to miss one second of it.. for so long i've missed it..

missed the opportunities
missed the love
missed the companionship
missed the trust
missed His presence in me..

i realize i don't need anything but Jesus.. the things that I missed haven't not been there because they didn't exist.. i missed them because i didn't LOOK for them. i didn't search for them with my heart. i looked to myself.. i looked to the people that i "loved" to find myself and to find happiness.. i knew God was going to smack me :) sooner or later. thank goodness he did..

i forgot how to say 'I love you Jesus'

i believe it's so much easier to talk about "loving" someone and saying that you love someone than to TELL the person you love them- and mean it with all your heart..


i felt like i needed worldly love.. i lost it and felt terrible-- but Jesus has filled that place-- but that's where he should have been from the beginning. i cannot fully love someone else until i love jesus with all i have! it's a time of growth but it will come!

i went to lifeway today to look for a "true love waits" ring and heard a song on their radio and got chills. i KNEW i had to find that CD.. it was selah's new CD.. got it and balled my eyes out the whole way home. listen to Deliver Us by Selah. it will knock your socks off. i promise! He continues to pour out his spirit-- even in the smallest situations.. and the most awkward. but it's supposed to be like that because He is EVERYWHERE.. and He is in EVERYTIHNG.

jesus is so good.. he takes my darkness and turns it into light. Psalm 18:28.

don't forget to tell Jesus you love him.. it will transform your heart- and it will continue to. for his love is unending.. it has no boundaries. DONT miss it..

love

country's barbecue

Making you hungry?? :)

Today i went to pick up lunch for my mom and I from country's while on my lunch break. I left my office and headed that way to find that i had to sit in line for 30 minutes. i am not a very patient person.. so i picked up my bible that was in my passenger seat and began to read the second chapter of proverbs.

I read about being obedient and listening to god's love and hiding his word in my heart, so i may live a long and faithful life to him.. and it made me begin to think..

yeah, we've been struggling lately- but we are so blessed. i sat in an air conditioned car-- ate a yummy, warm meal and had somewhere to go to eat. i was sitting at the stop light and saw a homeless man digging in the trash looking for lunch.... i was SO close to giving my lunch to him, BUT i didn't. i now know i should have!! i should've been more obedient to the holy spirit and blessed this man. but i guess this is just another way god has shown me to not be so arrogant. to not take advantage of what i have.. to be THANKFUL for a home.. for a car.. for air conditioning and a place to sleep at night..

i'm not sure why, but homeless people have been on my heart so much this week. i need to get a group together and get things from a shelter and give them to the homeless. sure, this man could've gone to the salvation army for help or something but he is an example or maybe a depiction of why i should give- why i should care and why i should not be afraid to step out..

i'm not holding back anymore. god's love and kingdom is too big for my selfish thoughts and excuses.. the time is now- and it's running out... more and more each day.