i did it

application for cti?
check.

absolutely and completely stoked?
better believe it.

i don't think i have ever wanted to get out of here more than right now.

as in, "i have never wanted to serve jesus all over the world, more than i do right now."

and this isn't going anywhere folks.

i praise you lord for your promises. i thank you father that you care for me. MORE than i could ever ever ever ever comprehend. no distance nor depth can separate me from you and your love and what a joy it is to know. father, i pray for guidance. peace. supply. provisions. SOULS. LIVES TO BE CHANGED. ministry opportunities. i SPEAK humbleness and LOVE. i rebuke EVERY idea of evil and proclaim your spirit in the lives of your people. father, you reign. i am yours, completely, 100% solely yours and i don't need anything else but you. jesus use me. empty all of my selfishness and pride and make me yours for eternity.

i love you, jesus. amen.

dying alittlemore every day.

can i just start this off by saying that the holy spirit is SO real, he is in every situation- the smallest things matter to him.

so here i am, sitting with my papa at the funeral today and hearing all of these wonderful things about my great uncle, Dewey that went to be with Jesus on Friday. This man was cherished among many and gave of himself to each person he knew. he worked hard in the church and gave his life to the Lord at an older age. i know he's in heaven rejoicing with his brother, my grandfather,-- grandjerry.

but jesus spoke to me today. at a funeral.. remember how i said he is in the 'small' moments?

not just merely about death, but how REAL death is. it is more real than anything else we know and yet we choose to not think about it. at least i try not to. but that is wrong.. we do not know the days we have left here on earth. i could live for 75 more years or 75 days or 75 minutes. i don't know. the one thing I do know is that i am ready. thank you jesus i am ready. by his amazing grace we have been saved and promised eternal life in him. but when will we reach heaven? only he knows.

so that gives me a reason to LIVE. earthly 'death'-- is a reason to live. jesus' DEATH is how we live. but his resurrection means there is no eternal death if we believe in him.

what im trying to say is, i wanna live each day on earth teaching others about jesus.

i think its safe to say..
if i'm not telling someone about god's love and letting them know of all the great things he has done each day, i would be selfish.

what will people remember me by?
how many people can say that they knew me because of my love for jesus?
will people be able to testify that i touched their lives through jesus?

these things are heavy on my heart and thanks to Christian, i blogged about it! so be blessed..

be the change..

long for souls to be saved and lives to be changed.

this is my heart's cry.

eveninthe d e p t h s

listening to Chris Tomlin's "live from austin music hall" the song Indescribable touched me. it is one of those that i'm sure i have heard 34590839452120 times. but god is so good and opened my eyes to something through one phrase...

''you see the depths of my heart and you love me the same.''

our hearts are composed of different parts, different emotions and jesus sees those and the deepest parts. the parts we want NO one else to see. the insecurities, the silent fears.. the jealousy, the lonliness that each of us, everyday, try to cover up with a smile.

jesus knows it. he accepts me even in my weakest moments. he knows me more than i could ever imagine knowing myself or anyone else!

so what is the same?

- when god sent his son, jesus, as the ultimate sacrifice, the greatest love man could ever know was shown..

that love lives in me. lives in you. lives in people around the world, even people who are 'undiscovered' by 'humans'.

that love still exists, never dies and continues throughout all ages regardless of our heart's condition. jesus loves those who don't even care about him or the things that His love has so graciously given us. he sees their depths, my depths, and still loves us the SAME.

I praise God for loving me. No bars held. Wide open, God's love is REAL. IT REMAINS STEADFAST. It is SO well with my soul. Thank you Jesus for accepting me, even when I am in the depths of myself. You see me- you pick me up and you love me just the same.

whataweek.

God is awesome. Amen? ;)

someone told me i was going to have a big week last week, but it was most definitely this week. gah the Lord is awesome to those who remain faithful to him. in no way is this the only reason for salvation- but it's a big part.

blessings.

i sit and ponder how great the god is. through music,lyrcics, through words, through his words, through friends and loved ones.

it's the small things. the front row parking, the laughs, great coffee, getting to bed early, FAVOR.

undeserved mercy and favor.

God knows the small things- he sees the small things. He understands happiness and gives us a little kick of joy right when we need it. that's my jesus- never lets his people down, always knows just what to do. just who to bring into your life!

this blog is a little sporadic, i'm sorry! i think that way. haha.

monday, at clarity- can i just say god definitely showed up? like in amazing ways.

during prayer, the Lord laid these lyrics on my heart. i hope they touch yours.

I see your face on a brand new day
It shines like the brightest sun
But I know you're missing something
I see it in your eyes

Your heart has been searching
Filling itself with emptiness
But there is place that to find eternal rest

Look to the heavens
Search for his heart
He wants your brokenness
Each and every part

God is saying let go
I'll do the rest
Quit asking how do I do that
How do i do this?

Look to the heavens
Search for his heart
He wants your brokenness
Each and every part

This does not necessarily have an order or melodic line yet- suggestions? i'll take them for sure..

Just wanted to share =)

God is here. He loves us. Oh how he loves us.He cares about the little things. Give them over!

I am only one, but still am one. I cannot do everything but still I can do something; and because I cannot do everything, I will not refuse to do something I can do.

-Edward Hale

I believe we as humans have the natural instinct to underestimate our own abilities. Why is this? Because we are afraid of what we're capable of. We're afraid of stretching ourselves to the limit.
.....but Jesus brings a confidence and a strength to overcome these lies.

We each have a gift. A talent or a trait that is a tool for God's kingdom. He calls us to use this for Him- for expanding His kingdom here on earth

Rob Kaple brought up a good point at bible study on Monday- "God has 'delayed' his return in order for more people to be saved." Time is running out, life isn't going backwards. Why not use what you have? I certainly can't leave my friends and those I have yet to meet, miss Jesus.

Jesus has never been so real. I find myself saying this many times- therefore, he becomes more real to me each day. What an amazing gift. I have prayed and prayed and sought after God and asked him to REVEAL things to me; this week that's just what happened. Not just to reveal himself to me but to drop hints and show things to help me find what my PURPOSE is. I know his kingdom is my purpose- but in what way will I reach people? Music? Speaking? Teaching?

I don't exactly want to put what I received this week- but it's time for bigger things. To step outside and find Jesus is other places. And I'm stoked.

I pray the same for you. That you'd have a hunger and thirst for Jesus so strong that you find yourself on your knees each day. Begging for his presence in your life. There is no better satisfaction. He doesn't just satisfy. He saturates and still pours out.

God speaks. He loves. He cares. He rules and reigns over ALL things. Do something for Jesus- something outside of the "ordinary"- you'll find Him.